Dollar Boy "If I Were To Die Tonight" Lyrics
Artist - Dollar Boy
Album - Tha Wigga N Tha Whip
[Lil' Dollar]
11:20 am January 1, 1987 my mama had me
about a mouth later we flew from Chicago to new York
and thats where me and my mom grow up in the streets
my dad left us cuz he was scared to be a dad
and mom told me he lied sayin he where gon be the
best father i ever had man thats messed up that my family
is livin like this my dad is selling drugs and hes
getting rich mama told me that the only reason he left
us is so he can get money
and sell pills but he know's that me and my mom
as to pay bills in winter we have blankets to kill the cold heat
and all we got is rice water and beans
cuz we got no money for us to eat im so sorry for all
of them times i said i didn't love you
cuz mom ya know i was just mad at yo dad
i didn't mean to take it out on you i love ya mama ya know
it's true trust me since im older now i can help us out so everyting
is gonna be cool ya can pay for the food stamps
why i pay for my schools it's getting kinda crazy seeing my
mama like this tryin so hard
and now we got nuttin left cuz of my dad stealing our money, or love
or cars now he stoled our hearts this is stupid
my dad doing this to his wife and since he cause me and my moms
world to change i started rapping bout my life i had a lot
to say ima call dad back at age 14 and tell him i don't play you
come back and make our lifes better and you pay cuz we don't got the
money and the money to pull you outta the slum
man we can't afford that man we can't even afford a stupid
pack of gum man thats not good and the worst thang about it we
got no power in this stuipd cold hood
we miles well just pack up and leave and head back
to the woods (yeah yeah)
[Chorus: 2x]
and if i were to die tonight
don't worry mama everything is
gonna be alright im sure you
had a lot of things to say
bout yo ex love life and if i were
to die tonight i would
still love and rembemer you
baby don't worry bout everything
cuz i'll just look into the blue
but that if i were to
die tonight ya know tha im
gonna miss you
[Lil' Dollar]
My big brother told me that he would leave
and thats when i said how can you do that
to yo mom and me we gave yo everyting
my mom said honey just chill ya don't wonna
regret something...like kill ya bet ya will
but mom im sorry i can't let him leave us
i mean when you a sleep in the mornings
and hes gone whos gonna walk me up to my
school bus and you getting up is just a big fuss
all ya do is fix me braskfest and scream and
cuss i love ya but i can't go on
with this so has i looked evlily at my bro i
walked outta the door has a gave my mom a kiss
i said im mad and i rolled up my fist
im gonna play hooky and try and get my dad
back for everything it did...for real im only 16 but
im thinking of killing him but i promised
God i would stop man if i didn't carrying round
this glock put it to my dads head and
pop he holla im sorry please stop i said nothing
i just letted my gun drop so i didn't kill
but everyting he did to me and my family yeah
betcha i will but i chilled and i unwine
and besides that i couldn't take anymore of my dads
girly whine as i walked outta his house
i signed and i said bye
[Chorus: 2x]
and if i were to die tonight
don't worry mama everything is
gonna be alright im sure you
had a lot of things to say
bout yo ex love life and if i were
to die tonight i would
still love and rembemer you
baby don't worry bout everything
cuz i'll just look into the blue
but that if i were to
die tonight ya know tha im
gonna miss you
[Lil' Dollar]
3:25 i walked up to my freinds they just
said why ya talking to us should you be
with yo family they walked away i said
ya'll just don't understand that my family
needs a helping hand after i hustled i went
into the studio to make some new raps
bout 6:20 i saw the fire ambulnace running
i walked up to my house it was on fire then all
of a sudden the house coalapps
i saw my moma she was okay i was mad
my brother said it was our crazy dad he did this
cuz he said you put a gun
to his head im sorry but he called the polcie on
you i hollad no i got a plan instead but i just forgot about
it the next day i saw my father dead in bed
i went in the ketchen my mom said son
in a loud voice so it got me my attention she said
im sorry but yo dad had a heart attack
but the goodthing is we rich now
since hes dead we don't have to worry bout him we
can finally live they way nomoral family is suppose to live
she gave me a kiss and off to school i went
i came home and my life has gotten worse
mama said i just got off the phone with a doctor
sayin the reasson why ya homie lil doe hasn't been in school
for a long time is cuz he was found dead
and i said no no that can't not be we 16 years old we've
been firends since of 2nd grade i got a gun
went to kill the guy yeah word keep it real i just had to kill
but the thang was the i didn't know who killed my homie
so the thang was it was the wrong guy but i keep my head to the sky
hope to God i won't die and i aplogized im sorry God
cross my heart and hope to die and ima
say sorry why i pray
if i die tonight (thats fasho)
[Chorus: 2x]
and if i were to die tonight
don't worry mama everything is
gonna be alright im sure you
had a lot of things to say
bout yo ex love life and if i were
to die tonight i would
still love and rembemer you
baby don't worry bout everything
cuz i'll just look into the blue
but that if i were to
die tonight ya know tha im
gonna miss you